When I share with people that I give talks, I also share that I’m nervous about public speaking. Totally TMI right? However, even Adele tells people she’s scared when she sings to crowds, sometimes she tells the crowds just before she begins another song. “I love you but you really really scare me”, is what I remember she said.
But I’m not Adele. Publicly saying I’m nervous, especially while delivering my 30-second elevator speech, isn’t a winning strategy for attracting people to hire me. You’d never know, at one time, I used to work in advertising. Note to self: must self-promote better.
I have other fears…like Copperhead snakes. Yikes, they are a bad ass snake. They don’t slither away from us, they hunker down, appearing to be a confident and secure snake…a good role model for the rest of their peeps. Because we have a lot of them on our property, I wear my gardening boots to prevent a nasty problem. Eazy peazy right? But…being seen by ooodles of people? Not so eazy peazy. Sometimes I’m not as bad ass as I’d like to be. Everyone knows that many people are nervous about public speaking. That doesn’t help me! And that very unhelpful factoid doesn’t mean that particular fear isn’t something for me to look at. For me, it’s about how I feel about myself. That I am not enough and I’m afraid you’ll see that too. Way more challenging than dealing with Copperheads.
But over the years, I worked on I’m not enough. I learned to be more aware of what I was thinking about myself and the words I chose. Over the years, I released many negative beliefs about myself, replacing them with way healthier ones. But never skipping the valuable, but sometimes highly uncomfortable step, of looking inside of me to understand where all that came from, how it started, and why I kept believing it. The more I understood, the more I let go of one limiting belief at a time. If I do say so, the result was totally worth it.
If this fear is showing up again at this time, it’s because I’m stepping up to bigger opportunities and allowing more of me to be seen. However, the art of looking and releasing is way easier and faster now, because I know to always look inside of me and to learn from that place. Throughout the remainder of my life, I plan on acting on many of my dreams. And if I’m not good enough shows up again?… I keep looking until those beliefs completely disappear.