I didn’t know squat before about managing my awareness, my energy, or about how I was creating (usually creating what I didn’t want to experience). There was me controlling things by making them happen because I could….Miss Organized. And there was the philosophy of things just happen. Life happens. Well I feel totally differently now as experienced by everything I’m learning. I’m learning to use my intuition rather than take a velvet hammer to my life and pound it into it’s organized place. I’m learning to catch myself before I go down the various rabbit holes of discouragement. Then there’s creating. Had zero knowledge that I create what I experience from my thoughts and habits, among other things.
There are ideas I’m creating and working on, there are interesting people I’m meeting, and my every moments, large and small, are lovely. I can’t wait to walk down the hall to my office every morning to get to work on some of my ideas. What’s funny is I’m waaaayyy more open and lighthearted. I’m effusive but hopefully not annoyingly so. If I really like a business I’m dealing with I send them an email and tell them all the things I like about them and thank them profusely. Then I wonder if it might not be a good time to ground myself. I wrote two thank you notes two times last week and wasn’t the least bit embarrassed for myself. One of the “gushees” even sent me a nice extra discount for future use. More reason to gush.
My feeling is that lightheartedness is contagious. Yesterday I watched my husband walk over to the paint person at Lowes and told her how nicely stocked the paint can aisles looked and asked her if she did it. Ok random example he might wish I didn’t share, but point being, she lit up with a big smile. Yesterday I went to a vegan class at Whole Foods (yes friends my face will get even thinner…again…bite me…this time I’m sticking with it) and a woman asked me you probably get this all the time, has anyone told you that you look like Jill Biden? Happily I said, only one other person. THANK YOU, I LOVE Jill Biden and then I added and Joe, and Michelle and Barack. And then I thanked her for not telling me I looked like Steffy Graff as the checkout person at Safeway told me. Steffy is awesome I just don’t think I look like her. You’re looking at my photo aren’t you and thinking I don’t think she looks like Jill Biden. Whatever. I don’t think I look like Jill either but how nice of the woman to say so.
I have no idea where I’m going with this other to say that I believe the world shifts one tiny moment at a time. When we feel nice we behave nicely. I’m personally experiencing joy and inspiration as a result of what I choose to focus on, where I place my thoughts. I know way more than squat now and I’m enormously benefiting from it.